psychedelic whirl

`-

i hate dad.
he's always accusing me.
freak.
dammit. i hate ppl who makes me cry & smudge my eyeliner.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [16.12.05 : 9:44 pm]

`the last goodbye

ive totally given up.
relink me suckers.

BYE.
so this is it. the last goodbye.
sob.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [04.11.05 : 6:04 pm]

`SO LONG DLAND!

im about to give up on dland.

SO LONG SUCKERS!
ive been having an affair with blogspot. i shall elaborate later.

GRUNTS.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [04.11.05 : 10:33 am]

`whoopeee

i wasznt much of a help at home really. i only consume the air & space & seek shelter. none of my energy was put to help in any way for the preparation of hari raya. which is by right, TOMORROW.
i kinda play hide & seek with isk this morning whn we went up & down the S'goon NEL looking for each other. im up, he's down. he came up, i went down. ahaha.. retards. oh wells, went to skl tdy to hand in the mgt proposal to mdm siti bt she wasznt there. prolly at home cooking rendang. hahas. we were in skl for barely 10mins & went off to Sing See Soon behind to get flowers for my mom. we went the awefully long way around the skl only to find out that the back gate wasznt locked. GAAH` we were escorted to the cold room to have our pick. or rather, MY pick. hehs. i was literally spoilt for choices man. all the flowers are pretty! wanted to get individual stalks of orchids of different breeds & colours but they only sell em in bulk. so i scrapped the idea.
we went to the other major florist for a pick & mom changed the idea to roses & baby's breath instead. but i bought another extra purple frickin pretty flower for her. isk was being my "questioner" & going in & out of the cold room asking for prices of the various flowers. hahas. poor darls..
& so, i picked my choices & paid it & went to HG ctrl to get my conditioner & accessories. oooh the baby breath cost like EIGHT BUX! that teeny weeny scrawny flowers that looks like rolled up tissues cost 8 bux. thats frickin ex lah. oh nvm, im in a spending mood anyways. whees. bought nice sparkly bands for my hair too. yumm yumm.. pretty pretty!
followed isk to buy his paint brush AGAIN. hahas. it seems like he's been painting the house since forever luh.. nvm, he can paint our house next time. cost efficient.. so better gain that experience now uh, baby? hahas. oh wells, we were walking so fast cos he's concerned that the flowers might not make it so he sent me off & all...
moma was smilling all the time whn she saw the pretty flowers. heee. we're gonna get a nice vase later on & display the flowers for hari raya.
i helped abit by doing the dishes & sweeping the floor. i think if i can predict that time is gonna be bad in the coming years, i can be a prefessional roadsweeper. cos i think that's the only chore im good at besides the laundry & dishes. hahas` sucha retard.
ooooh i cant wait for the shopping spreeeeeee! i'll shop till i drop. loads of things in my list. & its piling up (:
lastly....
Kepada semua umat Islam, selamat menyambut Aidil Adha!

Maaf Zahir Batin kalau saya tersinggung atau tersalah kata, mohon ampun..
bleah. my malay sucks. i dont know what i was typing. straight to the point, forgive me of any sinful & evil deeds ive done to
y'all. PEACE! Happy Celebration Day! ahaaas.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [02.11.05 : 4:07 pm]

`hot rollers

i found IT.
it was under my dressing table. phew.. it's gonna be Hari Raya in the next 2 days & i have totally no frickin mood for it. i bathed Henna this morning. she smells fab (: i love her. gave her cat treats & bought Fancy Feast for her for being sucha adorable baby. she's sound asleep & full now..
ive reflected. thing's werent as stable as ive expected. i really really want us to be happy..
forever
but things kept on cropping up. ego stands tall. & humiliation cant be hidden. im really sorry if ive really been a pain in the ass all these time. guess that's the real me uh? oh.. ive told myself to be optimistic. to be a good girl.. to banish hatred & jealousy. its almost impossible for me.. but i'll try as hard as possible. because without hatred & jealousy, life would be top notch (: i will ba fair from now on. no ego.. at least, put it down low. i dont want my ego to stand in our way. i will think of others before i say or do anything. think about their feelings & reaction. weigh the pros & cons.
maybe life would be better that way..
we'll talk things out as normal.. throw my feelings out & not hide anything from him. be as frank as possible to him like i want him to be. i want him to have his freedom too. i dont want to be a hurdle.
i realised that i was being nosy & too over protective & over sensitive of things. i didnt mean to. i was just curious. & being TOO curious is bad either. im infringing his private life. lesson learnt.
i used to doubt about this but fate proved me wrong. we belong together. ive never loved someone this much in my entire life before. besides henna & my family. he's the first person whom ive come across that's so uniquely lovable & true. ive never doubted him since then. but endless test that's so torturous to him proved to me that he's the one. he's ready for this. he showed me how colourful & fun life could be. he taught me to live life to the fullest.
so now it only you & me
& we've got no problem
except for my frickin blog which i got the frickin HTML wrong & now its haywired.
GAH.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [01.11.05 : 8:46 pm]

`311005

im struck dumb.
am i just an egoistic bitch?
do i care about myself & only myself
im fucking skrewed & lost.
i need to find myself
& get back to reality
check
check
check
check
WARGH.
i cant believe im crying like a baby. who wouldnt.
"i dont know who you are"
stings like poison.
forgiven but my fault
i would never forgive myself for whatever hell let loose ive done.
im a sinner.
i wouldnt risk calling myself a self-proclaimed BITCH but i feel like one now.
someone find me please, im fucking lost.

i feel so....
Just like I predicted, we're at the point of no return
We can go backwards, and no corners have been turned
I can't control it, if I sink or if I swim
'Cause I chose the waters that I'm in

And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want

(Chorus)
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
Cause some things will just never be mine,
You're not in love this time...but it's alright.

I hear you talking, but your words don't mean a thing
I doubt you ever put your heart in anything
It's not much to ask for, to get back what I put in
But I chose the waters that I'm in

And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want

What's your definition of the one?
What do you really want him to become?
No matter what I sacrifice it's still never enough.

Just like I predicted
I will sink before I swim
'Cause these are the waters that I'm in

(Chorus)
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing, but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
'Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time.
Oh, if it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing, but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
'Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time
You're not in love this time
You're not in love this time...

on the contradictory, i feel like this too:
You’re the kind of friend who always bends when I’m broken
Like remember when
You took my heart and put it back together again
I’ve been wasting time with clueless guys
But now it’s over
Let me tell you why
I’m through
I’ve meet someone new
Who’s just like you
You’re it
You’re the ultimate
It’s automatic.
I’m sure of it
No lie
So don’t even try
To tell me that you’re not the guy
Cuz I’ve been waiting all my life
For someone just like you
But you’re it
You’re the ultimate, you

You’re the kind of guy who’s hands in mine send shivers up and down my spine
You took my heart and put it back together again.
You’re the kind of guy that blows my mind
But now it’s my turn
You’ve been right in front of me
Everything I need
Why didn’t i see
You’re it
You’re the ultimate
It’s Automatic.
I’m sure of it
No lie
So don’t even try
To tell me that you’re not the guy
Cuz I’ve been waiting all my life
For someone just like you
But you’re it
You’re the ultimate, you
[Guitar Playing]
You’re it
You’re the ultimate
It’s automatic
I’m sure of it
No lie
So don’t even try
To tell me that you’re not the guy
You’re it
You’re the ultimate
It’s automatic
I’m sure of it
No lie
So don’t even try
To tell me that you’re not the guy
Cuz I’ve been waiting all my life
For someone just like you
But you’re it
You’re the ultimate, you
You’re it
You’re the ultimate, you….

*a ^DAY has faded away // [31.10.05 : 12:21 pm]

`-

i went into a frickin frenzy in the morning whn i cldnt find my purse. its like i was SPRING cleaning my table on saturday & i THINK i accidentally threw away my purse. i really din notice luh.. omg.. my ic, my ez link, my cash, my all other stupid cards!! argh! my dad's gonna kill me. its KARMA. i laughed at my sis the other time for being so stupid by throwing away her wallet & now its MINE!!
i was totally frickin pissed by my parents lah. hmmfff...
but that's not the point. the point is, i NEVER cleaned my table cos i know my mess. i know. but once things change, i go hay wire & i do not function properly... & this things will happen. i throw away stupid things but ended up throwing MONEY. wtf. im never gonna clean my table again. please remind me not to. EVER.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [31.10.05 : 10:17 am]

`pissed

been EONS since ive blogged. tonnes of things to blog but i simply put it away. nothing significant happened that might have turned my life to a standstill.
im just frickin pissed at my parents. the most unreasonable homo sapiens around.
GAH..
annoying creatures. im feelin frickin bored + pissed + GOD KNOWS!
totally in no mood for celebration. i just want this frickin time to just pass & let me be oke! stop bugging me & leave me alone. you dont have to fucking shout at me. im not deaf for pete's sake. i just wonder why people have to be selfish. OH I FORGOT. everyone's selfish in their own way.
forget it.
pick up the damn phone!!
$^!%$#^!

*a ^DAY has faded away // [30.10.05 : 8:11 pm]

`clucky day

oke.. im listening to sth from a VERY lame source.
-guffaws at the producer-
this like the most horrible pms ive gone thru in my entire life. ive seen myself being so high & crazy & talked non stop till i went stupidly low into the drain & ragin at my lil brother. i cant believe i inflicted pain in him. but he just hadta step on my tail.
F*
went to the mart to get chickens in the morn. & my mom forced me to cut them. i was totally not ready for that housewife thingy. obviously i cant even hold the darn huge knife properly. & i wish everybody who eats the chicken tonight good luck & not choke on the splintered bones. oh not to worry.. i just went thru a crash course & ive learnt how to save a choking person.
-beams-
i cut everything... every part of the chicken horribly. i think if u were to attend dinner at my hse today, you wld lose your appetite straight away. haha. that bad yah? i only managed to slice off the chicken butt nicely :) horrible woman.
but gm was being sucha bitch lah. like usual.. im not the least surprised.
im feeling all shitty now. i want my bf. i feel so empty..
alot of misunderstanding today. but im glad we scrape it thru. at least i learnt sth today. & im so stupid to let the cat outta the bag tooooo soon.
it wasznt as planned. only that his number is at my fingertips. like that day i accidentally smsed the wrong person. paiseh luh. blurr..
& i really really miss mike. hello... oi MrCousin..dont hide yourself lah.. you're too tall & big to hide under the bed. ur legs will stick out awkwardly. hahaa. call me soon ait?

& i learnt that SOMEONE finally had some individuality. i simply loathe ppl who dont have individuality. cos it totally sucks when u blog hop or friendster-hop, only to see a familiar catchy phrase that u ALWAYS use or the colour & fonts & whatsoever that u put in ur blog or whatever poses or stuffs you do to your pix. same goes to friendster. im no big fan of these but when it comes to creativity, it concerns me like WOAH. sometimes, i just wanna go up to that person & pluck their eyebrows.
TAKE THAT YOU CRAZY THIEVES!
hah!

*a ^DAY has faded away // [22.10.05 : 8:00 pm]

`gah

some people just dont know. its like some ppl are just plain ignorant & call themselves SWEET. like sweet16?! or worse, sweet13?! dont they know that sweet insert number here only happens at the age seventeen.
like now, me, SWEETseventeen. NOW. heee. i dont know what im blogging abt actually.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [21.10.05 : 8:45 pm]

`wargh`

this is like the 2nd day that i did not attend school.
i had this splitting migraine which nearly killed me. its so painful. went to the doc at night & he said that im just going thru post-exam stress & a degree of depression. he also said that im like too tensed & my body couldnt take the amount of stress.. its just too great to bear. he gave me this super strong med tt knocked me off almost instantly.
just face the fact julie, you're a weakling
the news was totally depressing lah.
i slpt the whole nite. i wanted to go to skl today but i woke up & i felt worst.
so i slept on. i woke up to take my med & slept back all the way till 12. i din fast today too. sob. i owe alot this year..
i felt very groggy..
i still am..
urghhh.. i dont wanna get back my results. it totally sucks.
no wonder im in a state of DEPRESSION.
& its very depressing typing all my depression out. urgh..

*a ^DAY has faded away // [21.10.05 : 8:06 pm]

`8TH!!

oh wells, so much to blog abt.
one thing at a time..
yesterday was a BLAST. literally frickin' COOOOL & i mean really cool.. like -0.38 deg.
wuahaas.. it was JEANS DAY for the pu1s cos we're gg snow city for PE. damn f* fun luh.. it was kinda lame at frst bt i was actually feeling all HIGH & EXCITED for it. nyahar..
filled in our PEARLS form frst.. but mine was horrigible. totally E M P T Y.
gah`
thn its SNOW TIME!
lucky i brought my winter gloves. isk was so funny.. his nose was red like Rudolph. heee..
our cls was the frst one down the slope. damn fun! 20 ppl, 15 bouyes [spelling?] & some of the girls hadta sit on the guys' laps. i sat on isk's luh.. & Ben was holding my hand.. frickin' FUN!
& its damn cold. i said tt many many times. i hadta warm Alvin's, darl's, kanthan's & Raj's hands..eventho the whole outing looks childish, its frickin FUN to the BONES.
brrrrrrrrrr..
after the whole thang, 8 of us went
ICE SKATING!!
another cold activity. super cold. but not as cold as SNOW CITY. that's uber cool. i fell alot of times lah. & Rose was like telling me tt i had a strong voicebox cos i screamed too loud everytime i was abt to fall.. i din realise ah. wuahaas. but frickin FUN! we skated from 12 all the way to 4. i only rested a while here & there.. frickin FUN. we played choochoo endless of times. hahaaa.. & me & Fad were wrestling on skates... & they said tt we looked like we're really fighting & bashing up each other frm afar. haha! that's called PROS.
sniggers
_____________________________________
TODAY.
was oke.
i frickin failed my frickin maths at A level & i frickin cried in the frickin class.
URGH!
MAJOR BUMMER
its just sick lah.
i cant even pass maths. what alone others?!
hopeless bitch.
i totally lost my frickin mood after that.
Rachel helped me find more marks in my paper. & found out that some people just lie their way thru to get what they want.
lifeless people.
i wanna join BOULDERING CLUB if there is in the new campus. tried boulderin junnow. fun but i was fasting so i din haf that much energy to climb..& i cant believe that i RAN 3 rounds up & down the skl junnow. despite fasting & me, being the weakling & complain queen, i did it :) it felt so much better. i havent been running my routines ever since i fasted..
AFTER SCHOOL we hadta go over to tohtuck for this maths enrichment talk which i slept thru half of it.
it ended pretty early & we went town to get food & head on to Esplanade.
we sat down at the sheltered gig & talk. saw many series of beautiful lightnings. really pretty creations of God. we crapped, talked & all.
very romantic.
we break fasted at the bay.
facing the sea
eating
& sharing a HUGE BIG GULP.
really romantic hor?
it is.
our 8th mth :)
love you sweets!
thn to end of the day, we sat by to watch a performance by the quantet frm the singapore winds assoc if im nt wrong. so nice. i love the flute.
raaah`
the end.
the rest of the ending is censored due to reader's discreetion.
thank you.
heees.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [19.10.05 : 8:51 pm]

`MONDAY!

yey!! dinner was a success! i cooked spaghetti & meatballs, mased potatoes & garlic bread. oooh it was scrumptious. indeed.
school was THE LEAST BIT boring. quater of the cls disappeared. we had this crash course on first aid. kinda interesting luh. its like a run thru of what ive learnt before last time. only this was a lil in depth. kinda intersting tho. learnt how to carry a caualty to the stretcher & rasyid was complaining tt iskandar was super heavy. hahaa. so cute luh. but iskandar cldnt carry rasyid properly too. & might even end up hurting his back. tsk. must bend ur knees oke? if nt u'll hurt ur back. NCC din teach you arh? learnt hw to save a choking person, bandage management, wound management & all. & it happens tt earlier in the morning, i jus bandaged isk's leg for him :)
so now ive learnt the basic of life skills. kinda interesting. planning to further that up. mebbeh take a course in the future or sth & save lives. or rather, my loved ones.
the first half of the day was quite a drag cos we were separated frm the rest. they get to stay in the audi & watch a movie while we maths students hadta go to the ava for this lesson on loans & interest. kinda interesting bt likw i said, its quite a drag. the ppl behind were so rude to mr ng. i mean, he's the most patient man ive ever seen. yet theyre like taking advantage & talking loudly in cls while he's lecturing. this is sth tt we wld face in the near future whn we take study loans in the Uni or sth. bt its their life. dont bother.
the frst 2 rows got released earlier. half an hour earlier so isk & i went to the lib. hee. normal stuffs. bitching. & i was kinda surprised whn cheryl came & asked abt HER. & said tt they were talking abt isk & HER at the back junnow. jaswinder was there too. i was really speechless. bleh. dont care. bitching ended & kaypo-ed abit at hilmi's plce. happens tt they're all gg for a holiday to phuket together. so cool.
accompanied iskandar to the polyclinic after skl. my frst time. i was feelin rather awkward there. abit lost too. but he was there wimme so im totally fine. things werent as bad as it seems yah?
well, got his medication and all & he sent me home. the waiting time was utterly long luh. can grow beard man.. hahas.
reached home, no time to rest & i just took a shower, prayed & prepared the kitchen. i cooked! yeah!! im really happy with myself. so proud :)
now im having a major headache. maybe cos we played in the rain junnow. so fun. was messing up each other's hair. laadeedaaa..
ooooooooooh. we're heading off to snow city tmr for post exam acts :)) cant wait! & aft tt, me & isk, maybe the rest too, prolly going ice skating! soo funnnnnnn.
cant wait.
urgh.. i nd to do the dishes..

*a ^DAY has faded away // [17.10.05 : 7:57 pm]

`-

oh wells. comp crashed yeah?
so that explains everything. why of all the times, my comp'll crash AFTER exams. now im so bloody damn bored. grrr.
i dont feel like blogging alr.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [16.10.05 : 8:03 pm]

`that day before

din do much today SMIRKS.
oh wells, woke up like 11 & bathed & all.. thn i did moma a favour by doing the laundry..thn got ready to meet isk. but i was kinda late arh. hee. actually i din know the purpose of us going out today. he smsed me in the morn askin if i wanna go out to study. but the thing is,
EXAMS ARE OVER!!!
gaaah. but he was meeting Athirah today & i decided to tag along. just curious.
but in the end, she din turn up. grumbles. make me sit so long. & we met a whole lot of Ah'goons. there's this guy named Ariffin if im not wrong... looks like my junior who always disturbs me. haha.. the long-ness & the mattish look. aharkhz. tickles me!
& heard tt its their graduation today.
when was mine? oh yah.. i missed my grad.
cos i had high fever for a week. %^!^@&!~$@%#&#$%
gaaaaah
poor thing leh. so im officially still part of that school.
yup CEDAR. you got a problem with cedarians?! huhhhh?
*guffaws*
dont mind me im mad. i just cant wait for the NINETEEENTH. we're going for a Maths Talk at Toh Tuck!! yeah! so fun!
oke that was uber lame. its not that lar.. it's the event after that. SMIRKS. the whole day is so gonna be special :)
___________________________________________________________
oh yah. today's the fourteenth. yesterday was the thirteenth.
2years aniversary.
happy? i dont know.
On a much lighter note, yesterday was our last paper for promos. i wont subdue myself into going indepth about it. cos what's done is done. whee. thn Aidah darlin` came over :) we went to the bazaar for awhile & bought HUGE CHEESEDOG! oooooooh drools. super nice!
i want that belt :) AIDAH!!! we'll go shopping!! oke! & yeah!! OREO CHEESECAKE!!!

RRRRAH`

*a ^DAY has faded away // [14.10.05 : 5:35 pm]

`dodododooooo

oke. HE just gave me a shock. i wasnt expecting him to come to school to meet me cos i thought WE merajok. i slept thru 12 midnight ytd & din call him. he was waiting by his phone all night. poor guy. i only woke up by the alarm at ard 1.45am. & i smsed him but he din reply so it was my bad & the worse thing is, i went back to sleep. i din even have the initiative to call him up to see if he's still awake anot. bad girlfriend.
& he was so sweet to wake me up for sahur :)
& i woke up late. we're suppose to go to school to study today but i overslept & he din have the mood to go to school already.
so i went alone.
i took my bloody sweet time & dragged my feet ALONE to school. library was quite full so i bummed up to the upper deck. i mean storey. i settled myself right below the aircon & did econs. i was utterly bored lah
& not to mention, QUIET. noone to talk to. noone to ask qns. i was smsing him & he said he wanted to fetch me ard 3. yaah nothing much lah.
thn came an sms asking if he cld be a lil early.. like THREE HOURS EARLY. i was about to reply him whn someone came infront of me & put his red econs file on the table. hahaa. i was speechless lah. i miss him ALOT.

end of story. blah bloody lame luh.
currently in school. taking a break from econs. lib's quite empty by now, everyone's out for lunch. :(
AIDAH! IM HAVING THAT EVIL BITCHY FEELING AGAIN. LIKE LAST YEAR!!!!!!!!!!! you wanna be my accomplice? heeee. different victim this time round.
-angelic smile-

*a ^DAY has faded away // [12.10.05 : 1:19 pm]

`:)

din do much today. din go to school but went esplanade instead to study. i went bonkers abit there & we went to the rooftop awhile. thn went fareast & i bought food :) & went PS' Marks & Spencer to get his cookies :)) thn i dragged him to Carrefour to get the aloe vera drink. super nice & quenching with huge pieces of aloe vera. ummphff.
& im sooooooo in love with electrico.
dreams dreams dreams
im gona do more econs later.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [11.10.05 : 8:24 pm]

`effed up.

my papercut is killin' me. i was doin the dishes & it simply stings! argh.
& im breaking apart LITERALLY.
im lacking of sleeep.
my sleeep debt is building waaaaay up.
ahh.. & i'd like to criticise abit here. nyahar.
eeevil.
common mistakes in spelling.
i think i can be an english teacher whn i grow up. i simply could not take grammar or stupid spelling MISTAKES. if you'd like to bold out anything, please do so with PROPER spelling. i really dont mean to be rude, but it's totally alright to be all cutesy & spell your words in funkeh ways & all but spell correctly lah.
i find it really defeating the purpose of blogging when your english is incorrigible. but it's really really not my problem. cos if the english is totally incorrigible, i would simply exit that damn page & move on. or better still, read a dictionary. im sorry if i was being rude but its none of your business to be appalled at what ive just typed. cos its my damn diary & please do exit & not come back if you have a very terrible perspection of how snobbish i am.
cos i just loathe certain people who labelled me & have the perception of me being the big bad bitch & whoever mambo jambo that is a thief of whoever stealing whomever.
i just hate it.
whatever oke, whatever.
its just that certain people just gave me the impression that they seem to care but actually, they dont. they never really cared. they acted as if they cared because they want to see me being sympathized & be thankful to them. so that they could take advantage of me. how could i ever be so stupid?! why did i risk myself being taken advantage of?! ive been rejected, yes. in terms of friendship, in terms of love. it hurts to see myself crumble when FRIENDS backstabbed me. maybe i deserved all these?
im sick & tired of all this shit.
argh im feeling so down..
thanks julie, thanks for bringing up the past.
& to that PARTICULAR person who tagged me.
please leave.
i dont mean to be rude, i never meant the way we used to be. but what's done is done. its over PERSON. its been long over. so please, move on, cos ive moved on from the nightmare.
please, do me that special favour for once & leave me alone.
i dont like you anymore.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [10.10.05 : 8:05 pm]

`-

alright, one more paper to go.
obviously today's paper isznt gonna make any difference to my 80% on promos.
maths was a killer. i missed out ALL the trigo fns & i dont even know how to do AP GP. gah!
& i dont get these people who talk about how they fare in their papers like 5mins ago & ask ppl abt the papers & compare answers.
i dont object in these kinda things but i just felt inferior. i mean, everytime someone asks me how was the paper, i'll be like over. why must they compare. its over. OVER.
im so stupid lah. i cant even do simple logarithm. arhh.. i need someone to teach me back the basics.
back to basics grl.
the only paper i was quite confident is malay. that's like the ONLY one?! wth. why arent i ready for promos? now its like left with one more paper.
i must really try my very best.
im really disappointed with myself.
i put him down till 13th to concentrate on my studies but i.. i havent been a good grl. im disappointing him further. i couldnt do well in my subjects. all of em.
ahhhhh
i dont wanna go to school anymore.
i wanna sit at home & be a taitai.
end.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [10.10.05 : 6:23 pm]

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its frickin 4.30AM & I STILL HAVENT FINISH MY REVISION FOR MATHS.
& im gonna take the damn bloody paper in like 3hrs time?!
lack of discipline.
lack of time management.
ample procrastination.
that's julie yeah..
stupid.
i have no faith in this paper.
malay's my only hope
BUT
i havent finish memorising the 40 peribahasas. wah lao!
so stressful can..
i nd to get back to work. & henna's disturbing me!! shoooo kitty shooo!

*a ^DAY has faded away // [10.10.05 : 4:34 am]

`horrid sunday

well, actually my comp din crash. yahoo!
its just lagging, that's all.
i had a nightmare last night. i set my alarm at 2.30am to wake up to study. i woke up at 2.15am. horrible horrible nightmare. i dreamt that some ahpek molested me. i was on the payphone with isk thn this ahpek came up to me & asked for sweets. i told him i had none & he grabbed me & was all over me. i screamed into the phone & called for help. i was too weak to fight him off & he nearly took advantage of me! i was so scared tt i was crying..thn i saw isk running towards me. i thought help would come at last but he just ran past me! he did not stop to help me, or even to look at me being molested! he just ran off.. i was so heart broken. i was so scared. i couldnt even have the energy to lift up my leg to kick that ahpek's dick. i was so angry! & scared!
i woke up sweating & crying. i was so scared. i smsed isk to tell him my nightmare & he was so comforting. he comforted me. despite it being like 2.15am..i was so touched. thn i fell back to lala land.
i woke up & i was tummy ache. urgh.
isk called & he said he had a nightmare too.. after i told him mine. it was somehow the continuation of mine. he dreamt that i was being raped by 2 ppl. he was there. he wanted to fight them off but i told him "dont isk, let them have what they want.. or else you'll get hurt" WTH. oke.. thn he killed both of the people. he said it felt real cos he felt the warmth of the blood. and he got stabbed too & i was shaking him.. but it happens to be his mom asking him to wake up.
horrible day.
hope it wont repeat for tmr
MATHS!!!

*a ^DAY has faded away // [09.10.05 : 3:40 pm]

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*a ^DAY has faded away // [ : ]

`gaaah.

aiyah..
comp crash AGAIN?!
wth lah. nvm.. mebbeh i shouldnt be too worried & concerned abt it. eh my mouth was too salty lah. in other words, im a badluck. i said in the early entries that i needed to get off the computer cos it was too tempting. yah. so this is it. im off alr.
BUT!
my lappie's here. alright. im soooo doomed lah. major bummer! julie! get a grip of yourself! you need self-discipline. you need to push the last lap for promos!
80% oke.. its sucha big deal.
be promoted, retained or advanced.
choices in life.
spoilt for choices.
___________________________________
anyways, we went to study in amk lib today. but i din wanna study. no mood. so i was searching for recipes to cook (: nyummy. thn went to my favouritest kitty shop to find samples for henna.
the brand looks promising.
nothing muuch today.
need to get back to my studies.
MATHS C!!

*a ^DAY has faded away // [07.10.05 : 8:36 pm]

`nil

Not planning to go to school tomorrow. self-proclaimed study break. eheks. gonna go out study with isk tmr. oh wells, nothing to blog about actually. only that i couldnt get thru isk & i couldnt sleep & its nearly 2am for goodness sake.
i watched how to lose a guy in 10 days. it was so sweet! i nearly cried at the end of the show. really sweet. i love that show (: & isk thought that i was picking hints from that show. please lah, i wouldnt wanna take any chances to lose you.
you're just too precious.
yey i din study today. totally slacked. i needed to get away from this comp! so tempting!
yikes..
im feeling so boreddddddd
mebbeh i should consider sleeping.
& outs;
1.43am.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [07.10.05 : 1:40 am]

`dead meat.

it was quite a horrible day for me. i mean, ECONS & MGT in one day? is there anything else that can make my mind as tired as this?! i was so fricking stressed up this morning that i cried during assembly. it's like, during national anthem & my tears were running.
i refuse to talk abt the paper. what's over is over.
i dont wanna stress myself any further. enough is enough. management is well off history too together with GP. *kicks down to the driveway*
thought that we could study after our papers but i lost my mood when we stumbled across isk's srs friends. totally gross me out lah. let's name that guy YUCKS. he was super rude to isk lah. i swear by my toenails that if i was really PMSing that time, i would have kick his dick & give him a big fat slap. ~~fuck~~. YUCKS was like, eh isk, you change GF again ah?! i felt so sick aft hearing tat. it makes it sound as if my bf is a playboy.
HE'S NOT!
i was really pissed with his friends.
went one whole loop back to s'goon & went by Hidayah's house to fix her comp. she's so cute lah. played with boboy awhile & Daniel's barret. isk said i look like sharifah whn i wore his NCC barret. nvm abt tt.
met more of his "friends" at the bustop & one of em waved to me. i din wave back but i blushed. he kept on teasing me abt it lah. & it happens that that person who waved at me was her ex bf. yucks.
i dont feel like blogging alr.
oke.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [06.10.05 : 8:36 pm]

`one day before major exam.

we skipped school today. naughty students. besides, there's only PE, which i obviously refused to be engaged in, GP & maths. GP's well off history for now. & it was raining cats & dogs which initiated me to prolong my journey to lala land. gosh. inducing my laziness.
dumdeedummm..
woke up ard 8+ & got ready to meet him to go to the library as planned to study. well, as usual, i was A FAIR BIT late. heee. in fact we were early. waited outside the lib like 2 sweet dorks for 10am to come.
i did mgt most of the time.
mgt exam is tomorrow.
econs paper3 is tomorrow.
& i havent finish mugging.
YET.
help? -gulps-
met loads of ppl today. some juniors & i did not fathom[usage?] that Gwen & simin was directly behind our table. it's been eons since ive seen em! whee. talk talk thn mug mug & more mugging. i was abit befuddled cos i was having a bad headache. thn saw my cousin too & his friend.
on our way off i met farhanah, my dear netball junior & she said im tanned. am i? she was like asking me what's my CCA & i told her Floorball & she was like, ohh cuci lantai eh? funny girl.. thn we went Compass for no reason. & saw Clara outside the bus. i was like, eh, that girl outside looks familiar & only thn i realised it was her cos she was looking back at me too. oke nevermind about that. thn at bus stop i met DAHLIA! oh gosh, she called out my name whn i was right infront of her & i couldnt recognise her. oh gosh.thn yup, you know me best, i rambled on.
laadee daaa.
& i saw what's his name? the skinny guy in M&D? my batch in 4/7? yah, him. in the bus. then isk sent me off & he smsed me something so sweet that i could melt under my serenade.
oh gosh. _{blush a thousand shades redder}
i counted my days. or did i miscount them? it seems that i missed ONE whole month of my menses. oke. im really shook up on this. petrified, to be precise. i just hope it'll regulate soon just to let me know that my bod's not under any intense amount of stress. & it seems peculiar that i've been high these few days. i mean, i was uber retard & spastic & acting all nonsense dummm dummmm.. lols. but i dont mind missing for another month just to complete fasting for one whole month (:
but i wanna have my menses!!
that's it.
im doomed.
by the way
im going on a vacation from this hectic life. see you next summer sweethearts.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [05.10.05 : 4:27 pm]

`grrrrrrrrrr

i shall blog in malay today. God knows why lah. haha.
eh besok puaser lah. abeh blom abes blajar lagik. mati ah cam gini.. ape seh.. tadi lepas skola gi rumah hidayah to study.. kitorang buat mgt & maths. i met her brother. so much mcm isk ah. so cute. but of cos isk is the pro lah. love him. eh cakap mayu.. eeee mcm meminah seh.
i'll stick to english as of today. malay makes me sick. bleh.
hiatus ah.
exams this thurs leh. wth are u dg here lah.
~~fuck~~.
im in a rotten moood.
but whenever i think of my msn nick i laugh to myself.
garter belts are high-jinks. so true. so true. tsk tsk tsk.
oh wells, counting down to 2 yrs in moomoo land. no feelings lah. more of resentment thn emptiness. 2 years. not long but it seemed like a lifetime.
EEEEEE STOP IT!!
%&!^#^*

*a ^DAY has faded away // [04.10.05 : 10:36 pm]

`so much for the monday blues.

alhamdulillah..just finished my prayers & buker. yumm. oke shall touch on tt ltrs.
i feel tt i seriously ignored Henna these few days. & junnow whn i came home, she was sprawled on my bed. i nudged her to move off cos i wanna take a nap. but she was spreading her body lah. haha so cute. i just hugged her & went to take a shower. & i showered so long. i sat & pondered abt my future. how iszit gonna be? bright? full of success? full of disappointment? or i'll just be a failure & be a road sweeper with an A lvl cert. tsk the irony of life. despicable fuck. wth am i talking?! nvm. but one thing's for sure. i'll die. so.. will i go to heaven or will i go straight to hell? hopefully no la hor.. im sucha angel. PUKES. im sucha sinner. better bertaubat before its too late. i pondered for so long lah. & i suddenly felt so stressed & over-paranoid. im so afraid to disappoint my parents. cos if i dont pass.........
i feel so depressed. i wanna GORGE! my God. i turned off the heater & soaked in the freezing water. i was crying like shit only to realise that ive been soaking in cold water for an hour already. i went out of the shower & Henna was sitting infront of the loo door. i wanna cross over her but she caught my leg & playfully scratch em. aiyoh.. i cant stand it lah! i played with her for more thn 30 mins.. thn we were so worked up...i turned on the aircon & slept naked. nyahar. nolah. i was fully clothed oke. thn Henna came up & snuggled in under the blankie. so cute!! she was all curled up under my armpit. heee. took a 15min nap & went printed his ic & bankbook.
earlier was all hyped up. i mean, cmon, im fasting & im all hyped up?! no link. i used to be so whiny & sulky & lethargic whn im fasting. but hell not for today. was super RETARD lah. me & isk laughed over stupid small jinky-dee stuffs. i started to feel the exam tension. not stressed. im not stressed. im just tensed up whn Hidayah was crying junnow saying tt she cant cope. but can i? i dont know. i dont even know my weaknesses. there i go, tryina make her feel better... saying encouraging words to her but im just making myself more worried. i dont know abt me. im worse off. oh God. i really need to pass my promos or else............................
went out with him for AWHILE junnow. went to the bank to ~~open up a joint account~~ get our MOE forms stamped & our thumbprints taken. heee. thn we wanted to buy an alarm clock but too ex lah. so went CP to get our buker & went backk home. we wanted to get the cheesedogs again but the bazaar's over :( awwhs. so i went home.
end.
im gonna start mugging & eat my CHOCOLATE WAFFLE while i mug ltr :) sweet heavens.
i miss camwhoring with you darl. i wish i had my cammie wimme junnow so i cld take sinful pictures of you while u were dozing off like a _____________ [insert noun here].
-sniggers-
its been a great day. yeah, so much for the monday blues.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [03.10.05 : 7:17 pm]

`saturday.

SATURDAY.. tralalaas` oh well, din get to watch JU-ON2 ytd cos i was so dumb tt i set the alarm at 11.30AM. yada yada yada.. went to skl today to study. Hid & Fad din come :( so its me, Rose & isk. studied mgt. & im constraining myself frm coming online too often. bleh.
basically we studied.
end.
went MP lib aft tt and u wont belief how many TONNES of food me & isk ate. we went off ard 2.30 cos the frickin lib is closing at 3pm. so off we went on our cruise on the tomato bus. -sniggers-
went to sgoon ctrl & there's a BAZAAR! squeals. we got our indulgence there. & i expanded. & we GORGED.
let's see what i consumed today.
[its not chronogical]
fried rice & sambal goreng
oreo cookies
julie's cheese biscuits
cheese & sugar LOAF. yes. those huge bread.
plain water
starbucks caramel frap
gummy hearts & apple rings
CHEESEHOTDOG drools
tea egg
Ramli's burger
CHOCOLATE waffle (:
strawberry snowshake

like woah. 12 items. 12 wonderful heavenly sinful scrumptious foooood. i GLOAT. nyahar! nvm. fasting month is nearing so i dont hafta worry. lols.
we had fun. destressing frm the amt of stress i had after GP ytd. the paper was a killer. i haf no faith in that. omg.
wish me luck!
oh yah. happy children's day!

*a ^DAY has faded away // [01.10.05 : 6:16 pm]

`shiny trophy

i havent updated this thing for 5 days alr. wow. that means im not online for 5 days already?! double wow. let's see what happened.
270905
Aidah darling's sweet 7teen bash (: met up with our usuals & ate at pizza hut. well, thngs felt weird but i put up a brave front. no regrets. but it hurt me. alot.
i love her alot.
the nxt day doesnt seem so much of a difference. come to think of it, i barely remembered what went thru. i COULDNT remember!
omg. but i do know tt im overly stressed not because i studied too much but i havent been studying much. the main reason. lols. wait, that's no laughing matter julie. anyways, just CHEER UP *pats shoulder* & work harder please?
im feeling so pathetic. yucks. that feeling agn. SKIPPPP.
290905
was late cos i woke up late. excuses. but i slept like 8 yesterday & slept thru the whole nite! i waznt feeling well so yah. that explains my lethargic-ness today. i had fever in the morning. during GP. isk was like doting me (: he took care of me. he wet tissues & place it on my forhead & keep reminding me to drink lots of water & ask me to slp if i cant take it. he gave me panadols too. i slept for an hour during econs & i felt a lil better. we din have any break for the morning cos its been pushed forward. so yah..ate lunch & i ate CHEESECAKE! yummy yummm. thn went to the gym with isk. maths was alright but i was feeling drowsy & i slept for 5 mins. during tt 5 mins, i was totally switched off frm the world. like i fainted. i mean, i totally lost conscious. anyways i felt SO MUCH BETTER!
no more fever. thanks to isk *hugs him tight tight*
oooh dya knw what?! this morning, while gg for assembly, i saw shiny trophies on the table beside the rostrum. & i turned to isk, telling him tt i miss getting trophies. lols. he was like so drama-mama-ish & exclaimed. but HEY HO & BELOW! me, rose, fad & hid were the ones who aare entitled to the trophies! weehuuu! we got frst for the berbalas pantun thingy. KUDOS TO US! nyahar. so happy. my frst trophy frm MI. hope there's more to come. *rubs hand together*
ait. tmr's GP paper. i wanna do some last min revision? i shld be yah? wish me all the best!
i love you.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [29.09.05 : 7:46 pm]

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i wont be updating as much as from now.
firstly, im in no holiday mood to keep on blogging like shit.
secondly, im in a bloody fucking foul mood now.
dont ask.
whatever shit im experiencing now, i hope it wont spoil my night.
annoying.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [24.09.05 : 9:39 pm]

`TGIF forever!!

oke i admit. im a doofus when it comes to HTML shittos. but who cares. i did whatever i can ait. no grumbles here (:
ANYWAYS my day went smooth & ^GREAT. so much for TGIF! definitely worth it. nyahar. i dont even know what im typing! whees. oke oke..i wasznt feeling too well in the morning tho. my tummy still feel weird & funneh. so that explains why i was kinda moody for awhile. got back the mgt test junnow. i got full marks for the trueORfalse qns (: but he grls & me were feeling ABIT guilty. cos fad saw another cammie at the back corner & i sported another one in the speaker. lols. so yeah. nvm.. ive learnt my lesson.
ISKANDAR BOUGHT ME
OREO CHEESECAKE during break!! i was caught speechless whn he came back with the cake in his hands. im like. OMG.
drools.
i was soooo happy aft that.
he just did it again!
he made my day (:
PE was exceptional. cone ball again. but i decided to join in. Enos was disturbing me & isk lah. cos we're opponents what. thn both of us were fighting for the ball & he was like
eh, gf bf cannot fight fight lei..
abish. nvm. thn Alvin hugged me frm behind cos i was defending him. eee stinky kitty. kanthan hurt poor Ina. now she's CACAT. nyahar. poor Ahmah. i hadta help her up & down the stairs.
the guys SABOed Buntono.
horrible.
water wash thn body sandwhich
super stinkos.
thn darls SABOed me! he wet me with the icy cold water. Fad too. i was like fricking wet & cold luh. but i took my revenge (: nyahar.
next event:
shaving cream fight!
the boys were smearing shaving cream all over luh.
me & fad smeared on alvin's face. all over his beardline. haha! PAPA CHRISTMAS! so cute.
but mingshan & alvin caught us & smeared us too.
i got tonnes of shaving cream on my hair & it felt minty fresh! we went to the toilet & washed it off.
next event:
oke i find the next event thingy very LAME but let's forget abt it for now aye? oh wells, i met up with him aft his prayers at compass & eat. nyumm. i think thats a MUST daily activity that i engaged with him (:
& guess who ringed ma phone?!
VERONICA TEO YENTING!
omg. i ran to meet her & omg. i missed her like SHIT. i mean.. u get the drift doncha?
thn introduced isk to her & Rina (: missed the girls luh.
TRUCKLOADS.
me & isk shopped awhile & went to the lib for awhile. & i dragged him down to meet my sis.
introduced him to her.
& her to him.
& we went separate ways.
me & big sis shopped more.
more more more!!
bras & thongs GALORE!
we even went into the same changing cubicle to try out bras. lols.
nice leh.
anws mine's bigger. BEAMS
so we shopped & shopped & shopped.
fo mummy's pressie.
& im still searching for THAT cardi.
met Farzi aft that & went home with him.
i mean he sent.
oke now im broke.
totally.
i came home feeling soooo glad & elated.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [23.09.05 : 10:16 pm]

`nasty day.

3more mins & school will end for today. but im at home :)
had food poisoning :( dont know what went wrong there. i feel so weak now. i puked like 5 times today since 3am. my tummy felt weird & i just wanna lie in bed the whole day! ecks. i had outpatient leave for today..i slept back at ard 7 all the way til 12 and showered. attempted to eat bfast but i threw it up. IM SO BLOODY HUNGRY! and my tummy refused the food. grumbles. i was so bored at home. came online with only a few ppl online & chatted with those few. played neopets & blog hopped. flipped thru my econs & continued playing neopets in bed.
& my sis asked me out to the salon so i followed. got a free treat from her :) whees. cut my hair again & went for treatment cos my hair was super dry. i think too much chlorine yah. but the bliss of swimming! aharkhz nvm.. all along i was like flipping thru mags & more mags & oogling at models with nice hair & bods. nice nice makeups & tips too! & not to mention, PRETTY things! & my year end resolution is to pamper myself to a SPA :) whees. cant wait.
oke im so hungry now. lucky mum's cooking pasta for me. hooorah! oooh ooooh i made a blogskin junow. but i havent finish with it. shall put it up soon. i dont like this skin. its UGLY.
im starting to miss ppl alr.
all my kids, my scandal, my lil bro & of cos my wife.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [22.09.05 : 5:12 pm]

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oh wells. wednesday. i brought 2 bananas to school. we took he bus to skl these few days cos early morning duzen suit me anymore. ive been sleeping like 2-3 am and hadta wake up by 6? almost impossible for SLUMBER QUEENs like me. so there. i think i really need to eat my Vitamin C. today's pretty boring. especially PE. just imagine, my favourite period is filled with bore. urgh. we played CONE BALL. lame game. i din get to play against isk's grp. to think that i can finally work my sweat out druing pe.. the thing is, i din sweat! wanted to head to the gym aft tt but i lost mood. so went back to cls with him & ate the bananas. but isk squeezed my banana & it was all squishy. i was SO particular abt food that i eat & he hadta spoil my appetite. so i refused to eat the squashed bananas. and i merajok AGAIN. im such a pussy. i dont know what's up with me. over-sensitive & too stressed up i guess.
especially with Henna. she had fever last night and it totally took my mood away to study. i was so worried for her. but Alhamdulillah she's alright now. my baby's back :)
& today, there's blood donation drive. & this is the 3rd time for Goodness sake that ive been rejected. this time isznt bcos of legal guardian, low iron count or what.. its because they couldnt find my vein. SO DEPRESSING! i really wanna donate blood. but its just not fated yah? next time then. sigh.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [21.09.05 : 6:17 pm]

`toosday.

i havent finish blogging ytd. i just lost my mood & just click on DONE!.
ytd was our 7th month. & we went out for a movie in town. its been some time since we caught a movie together. ytd was our 2nd time watching movie together. only. yes. haha.. no time to enjoy now.. promos coming and im not a single bit ready.
im fasting today. left one more to finish off my debts. nyahh. but i forgot to wake up in the morning to eat. so im like totally lifeless today. the day din coincide with me well either. everything seems so wrong. i get frustrated & annoyed easily. i even blow up ytd night at isk. i feel so bad. ive been so rude this few days. i think im just too caught up with my work & too stressed up with this juggling of whatever. uhhh..i felt really restless today. had management test & i din even study for it. & the other girls were copying & i copied for one qn. oke. now i felt tha pang of guilt running thru me. argh. then after that i lost my mood for maths. totally. i slept like during the 2nd period cos i felt so weak & tired. and before that, isk was like telling me he's going bugis later. i asked him for what & if i cld tag along. & he quickly shook his head. im like why? & he said he's gg out with his friend. who? he said Ashirah. im like. FINE ARH. and i nearly cried cos i was so jealous. cos its like, ytd whn i smsed him asking what is he doing, he said chatting with Ashirah. & now going out with her?! wtf. im like so bloody pissed & jealous. but i was fasting. i din wanna blow up like ytd. so i just kept quiet and tried best not to cry. its really difficult lah. and i asked him one more time if he's really going out with HER. and he was like, who's SHE? ohh.. ya.. i am. i was like THAT'S IT!!! i wanted to cry right there & then in jealousy. then i merajok & ignored him. & he filled in the blanks. AIDAH. im like. warrrghhh!! so paiseh. i was angry at him for nothing.bahh!
aft skl went compass to buy food for me to buker afterwards. thn he sent me off.
and HAPPY seventeenth BIRTHDAY HIDAYAH! love youuuu.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [20.09.05 : 3:41 pm]

`-

what a way to start my day:
by stepping on POOOOO. me & kenghao were running out together at the same time luh. & i avoided hitting him by running on the grass instead. but the POOOOO hadta be there. what a MAJOR BUMMER! & the best thing is that i din realise it til i was in the bus luh. gosh the stench was one of a kind.
let's skip the stinky part shall we? besides, i washed up in skl.
i cooked fried rice & fried chicken. oooh fried fried fried yummy food. & i spent the entire night before doing my econs tutorials & malay. OMG. it nearly killed me. piles of them. the rest of the girls fasted today. so me & isk went for break. thn we played the piano for awhile. yah.. basically, same old monday i had. except that me & rose composed a new medley of songs on the piano which is super fast & they just love to see me panic under pressure. horrible people. we were speeding up for the part on the piano & i panicked & hit the wrong keys at the wrong time! but the song was superbly wonderfully
melodious. heee. so fun. and we played BINGO during HTP cos noone was there. and skipped econs all the way. cos Mrs Koh wasznt gonna come. so laoshi dismissed us at 1.30pm.
& since me & him had planned to catch a movie today, we headed to town. whees. watched the cave.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [19.09.05 : 6:50 pm]

`partially hiatus. hakz.

i feel so depressed. omg. i dont know what im feeling right now! Friday is always relaxed. as per normal. mgt lecture, thn tutorials. for the first time since so long, i din dozed off. whees. happy happy. thn pe was a total bore. i screamed at X cos he's a damn fricking faggot. stupid asshole. annoying creature. hmff. Heikal & Azlan wasznt there & Ser was being bossy and "clever" we practically played with 2 teams only lah. what the. and im always against darl's team, which had X in it. sucks lah. it makes the game so urgh for me. and im very dumb! i din realise that i rammed darl's gut with my shoulders. i guess i was too angry with his team. and i din know that ive caused so much pain to him! omg. and i was like lieing down with the girls at the gym aft tt and cam whoring. omg. when he's there, suffering. i felt so bad during econs. hmmf. thn we had malay oral. which i totally skrewed the fricking shit of. omg. i realised i CANNOT SPEAK MALAY! so much for my English speaking family. oh God. i was like speaking in english. horror horror horror.
oke ive been really busy. ive got no time to blog long elaborate entries. im gg to run & swim with darls tmr! cant wait. i guess that's all for now.

im so stressed up.
i need a break from reality.
Could it be this
The story in your eyes
Tell of silent wings
You fly away on.

*a ^DAY has faded away // [16.09.05 : 7:34 pm]

`fad's bird-day

well, break the rules again, im here to blog :). nyahar. first off, i'd like to wish Fad..
a very
HAPPY
BIRTHDAY!
whees. eventho today was a VERY long day, i had my day. its good luh. im glad tt i caught the study bug in time. whees. i fried my famous yummy chicken for them this morning. lols. ended up eating my time to get ready in time to meet darls. but i was just in time to take 158 :) i brought his bottle home to wash properly (hee.. im not doubting you for not washing it properly darls. it just needed some FEMINIE touch) haa.. & made Mango cordial for him & refrigerate it to make it reallll cool :) i love myself. wrapped Faddy's pressie & set off to met darls.
school's oke. had